Brain Memory 1./ My Boyfriend Died

 The knots my stomach sustain 

For comfort of a wound, I allow 

To keep space as a reminder 

I still have you, those couple 

breathes before the monitor beeped;

What an obnoxious noise 

Time of death echoes & 

Repeats whenever I hear 

And linger on this memory of mine

I fail to listen to your voice 

With the message, you left 

How fragile of me 

I'm afraid that voicemail 

Will be the last remembrance 

I keep (like a secret) of you 

that feels present 

but so distant 

The way your voice grips 

And makes my hands sweaty

Calamity closes my throat

I dread the sentence 

My boyfriend died 

Because I can’t believe 

You’ve split from me